Depression
Do you know what it feels like to be so ultimately depressed?
You must experience it to know how exactly it feels like. It is the ultimately worse feeling in the world. So bad that it makes one think of giving up his/her life. There is simply nothing to live for. One will try to think hard about life. About what they want, about what there is to live for but they will never get an answer. Everyday is just a drag and you hate the world. You hate everything in this world
Every single drop of happiness vanished. You may try very hard to be happy. Try to do those things that once made you happy but I am so sorry to tell you, happiness is not gonna come back. Even if you pretend you are happy, someday something will trigger you to be depress again.
Imagine living each day without something to look forward to. After some time you will start thinking how long your life is. How much longer do you need to live with all these crap. Then you will think that perhaps it's better to die. You wish everyday that you will just die somehow. Not everyone has got the courage to suicide so those without the courage will just sit around and wait, hoping that he/she will just die soon. Some people will muster the courage to commit suicide. Until then will people around this person knows that he/she is actually very depressed.
People will start saying,"Come on, there are people who are worse than you! Think of those kids in Africa."
Unfortunately, like I mentioned, depressed people has lost all concerns of the world. They hate the world, hate the society. They hate the fact that they are borned and they hate their own existence. Telling someone who hates everything about kids in Africa is not going to make him/her stop hating.
Then there are also those people who tell depressed people,"You are just creating problems for youself. Just snap out of it!"
They do try to snap out of it but it's not as easy as a snap of the fingers. Not like they can just say,"I am happy" and ta dah! They are happy already! No, it doesn't work like that. The only way to be happy for them is to eat Ecstasy.
Yes de, it's ecstasy.
Sometimes, they will at other people in the train, in shopping centres etc and wonder how these 'normal' people are feeling and if they are really happy. Sometimes they will envy these 'normal' people around them.
Let's see the symptoms:
-Persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” mood
-Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
-Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
-Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed
-Decreased energy, fatigue, being “slowed down”
-Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
-Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
-Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
-Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
-Restlessness, irritability
-Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain
-Self-harm
There is a possibility that you have depression if you have 5 or more of the above symptoms for more than 3 weeks.
I was listening to a song by Jay Chou and I think it is quite depressing. May doesn't think so but I think it is.
The song is about a lover who died but besides the dying part, the description of the feelings is just like how a depressed person will feel.
一群嗜血的蚂蚁 被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
Looking at sceneries expressionlessly in a lonely manner is very depressing. Sceneries are beautiful but unfortunately they doesn't brighten up your mood.
失去妳 爱开始分明
失去妳 还有什么事好关心
Like I said, depressed people doesn't care about anything.
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒 广场上饿食的是秃鹰
Sometimes, even beautiful or normal things will be interpreted badly in the mind. Doves no longer represent peace, in fact pigeons look like vultures fighting for food.
那些断翅的蜻蜓 散落在这森林
而我的眼睛 没有丝毫同情
It's sad to see a bunch of dragonflies with broken wings but a depressed person don't give a damn.
失去你 泪水浑浊无情
失去你 我连笑容都有阴影
Can't even smile properly, can't feel happy at all.
风在长满青苔的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心 像一口没有水的枯井
I like to sing this song in KTV. It's a nice song.
According to a phsychiatrist, depression is like flu in the head. When doing a brain scan, the brain of depressed person will look different from a normal person's. That's because of some neuron changes and some chemical reactions. So, depression can be treated with medication. Anti-depressants will adjust the neurons and brain chemicals to their correct proportion and position.
Well, why suddenly blog about depression?
Cuz I want more people to be aware of what depression is. That's all.
You must experience it to know how exactly it feels like. It is the ultimately worse feeling in the world. So bad that it makes one think of giving up his/her life. There is simply nothing to live for. One will try to think hard about life. About what they want, about what there is to live for but they will never get an answer. Everyday is just a drag and you hate the world. You hate everything in this world
Every single drop of happiness vanished. You may try very hard to be happy. Try to do those things that once made you happy but I am so sorry to tell you, happiness is not gonna come back. Even if you pretend you are happy, someday something will trigger you to be depress again.
Imagine living each day without something to look forward to. After some time you will start thinking how long your life is. How much longer do you need to live with all these crap. Then you will think that perhaps it's better to die. You wish everyday that you will just die somehow. Not everyone has got the courage to suicide so those without the courage will just sit around and wait, hoping that he/she will just die soon. Some people will muster the courage to commit suicide. Until then will people around this person knows that he/she is actually very depressed.
People will start saying,"Come on, there are people who are worse than you! Think of those kids in Africa."
Unfortunately, like I mentioned, depressed people has lost all concerns of the world. They hate the world, hate the society. They hate the fact that they are borned and they hate their own existence. Telling someone who hates everything about kids in Africa is not going to make him/her stop hating.
Then there are also those people who tell depressed people,"You are just creating problems for youself. Just snap out of it!"
They do try to snap out of it but it's not as easy as a snap of the fingers. Not like they can just say,"I am happy" and ta dah! They are happy already! No, it doesn't work like that. The only way to be happy for them is to eat Ecstasy.
Yes de, it's ecstasy.
Sometimes, they will at other people in the train, in shopping centres etc and wonder how these 'normal' people are feeling and if they are really happy. Sometimes they will envy these 'normal' people around them.
Let's see the symptoms:
-Persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” mood
-Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
-Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
-Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed
-Decreased energy, fatigue, being “slowed down”
-Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
-Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
-Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
-Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
-Restlessness, irritability
-Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain
-Self-harm
There is a possibility that you have depression if you have 5 or more of the above symptoms for more than 3 weeks.
I was listening to a song by Jay Chou and I think it is quite depressing. May doesn't think so but I think it is.
The song is about a lover who died but besides the dying part, the description of the feelings is just like how a depressed person will feel.
一群嗜血的蚂蚁 被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
Looking at sceneries expressionlessly in a lonely manner is very depressing. Sceneries are beautiful but unfortunately they doesn't brighten up your mood.
失去妳 爱开始分明
失去妳 还有什么事好关心
Like I said, depressed people doesn't care about anything.
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒 广场上饿食的是秃鹰
Sometimes, even beautiful or normal things will be interpreted badly in the mind. Doves no longer represent peace, in fact pigeons look like vultures fighting for food.
那些断翅的蜻蜓 散落在这森林
而我的眼睛 没有丝毫同情
It's sad to see a bunch of dragonflies with broken wings but a depressed person don't give a damn.
失去你 泪水浑浊无情
失去你 我连笑容都有阴影
Can't even smile properly, can't feel happy at all.
风在长满青苔的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心 像一口没有水的枯井
I like to sing this song in KTV. It's a nice song.
According to a phsychiatrist, depression is like flu in the head. When doing a brain scan, the brain of depressed person will look different from a normal person's. That's because of some neuron changes and some chemical reactions. So, depression can be treated with medication. Anti-depressants will adjust the neurons and brain chemicals to their correct proportion and position.
Well, why suddenly blog about depression?
Cuz I want more people to be aware of what depression is. That's all.
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