Sick and Tired
Haiz, the title says it for me. Sick and Tired.
Of what?
Everything lor.
Seems like my blog is always full of unhappiness and kping. I would love my blog to be a happy blog but unfortunately, the owner is not a happy person so the blog is also a gloomy, sad blog.
Feel kind of down and gloomy and glum and sian these few days. Maybe it's because of the lack of quality performance opportunities or maybe it's because of other things like opera politics. Whatever it is, I just feel so super sian and unmotivated.
I felt again that I have done badly in my opera life. I felt that I am so lousy and I didn't improve for a long long time. Even ah gou and ah mao cao do better I think. Unlike me, stagnant, no break through, can't improve. Am I going to stay like this forever?! Stay as lousy as ever. Other people can improve so much within days and months but I just stay there like a stone. Stone there, cannot move, cannot talk. Like shit lor. If I stay like this, I can never realise my dream to be really good. Haiz... Don't know what to do liao. Maybe I should talk to uncle Lim or something.
As you all know, I will be going to Indonesia at the end of the month but somehow, I am not looking forward to it at all. In fact, I felt that I shouldn't have agreed to go. Then I wouldn't need to go rehearsals. I can just lay in my bed day after day to slack and sleep. I felt like having holidays somewhere. Not performing trip, just purely holidaying. Actually when I go overseas perform, I seldom get to rest. It's always rehearsals and more rehearsals. Maybe they will give us half a day to go walk walk but that's all.
Haiz.. Somtimes I even wonder if I am right to have started all these opera things. If I never, I will probably have nothing to do on weekends, everyday go party, shopping and watch movies.
Feel like digging a hole and just hide inside it so that no one can find me....
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Of what?
Everything lor.
Seems like my blog is always full of unhappiness and kping. I would love my blog to be a happy blog but unfortunately, the owner is not a happy person so the blog is also a gloomy, sad blog.
Feel kind of down and gloomy and glum and sian these few days. Maybe it's because of the lack of quality performance opportunities or maybe it's because of other things like opera politics. Whatever it is, I just feel so super sian and unmotivated.
I felt again that I have done badly in my opera life. I felt that I am so lousy and I didn't improve for a long long time. Even ah gou and ah mao cao do better I think. Unlike me, stagnant, no break through, can't improve. Am I going to stay like this forever?! Stay as lousy as ever. Other people can improve so much within days and months but I just stay there like a stone. Stone there, cannot move, cannot talk. Like shit lor. If I stay like this, I can never realise my dream to be really good. Haiz... Don't know what to do liao. Maybe I should talk to uncle Lim or something.
As you all know, I will be going to Indonesia at the end of the month but somehow, I am not looking forward to it at all. In fact, I felt that I shouldn't have agreed to go. Then I wouldn't need to go rehearsals. I can just lay in my bed day after day to slack and sleep. I felt like having holidays somewhere. Not performing trip, just purely holidaying. Actually when I go overseas perform, I seldom get to rest. It's always rehearsals and more rehearsals. Maybe they will give us half a day to go walk walk but that's all.
Haiz.. Somtimes I even wonder if I am right to have started all these opera things. If I never, I will probably have nothing to do on weekends, everyday go party, shopping and watch movies.
Feel like digging a hole and just hide inside it so that no one can find me....
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"...unhappiness and kping. I would love my blog to be a happy blog but unfortunately, the owner is not a happy person so the blog is also a gloomy, sad blog..."
You are being try to yourself and not pretending. True friend don't mind that.
thinking of joining if I am qualified... I love huang mei and hokkien... perhaps we can contact through email... my email is dora_fly83@yahoo.com.
So what costume you gonna wear this time?
Perhaps you can learn more about
"武旦" in the future, so you can learn more Chinese opera *movements and doing *fitness, at the same time.
Save time and double benefits.
And I thought Ramayana is a Hindu story.
I'm confused!!!
Ramayana is an indian story but our school change it to a chinese opera script so we can act it out. I acted it quite a few times liao and find it alittle boliao.
Most of the opera shows I've seen are mostly shows which were already scripted and have been recorded into CDs. Like Princess Chang Ping, Dreams of The West Chamber, The Purple Hairpin, all these have been originally acted by famous opera artists.
And the live shows I watched used the same story and songs from them, though they do add in a little stuff here and there.