SB Jialat

I think I sb jialat lor. I always flop my show leh. I don't know why but it just flop lor. Maybe I should retire and do something else like playing Playstation, pick up a fourth language, learn Pop dancing, swimming, cycling, shopping (which I think I do best), watch movies, design websites, touch up photos, sleep... anything but acting.

It's weird that I am interested to do something that isn't really my forte. Shouldn't people be more interested to do things that are their forte? I don't know what my forte is. Nick says my forte is doing all the computer stuff but seriously, I am also not THAT good with my computer. I only know a bit here and there.

Or maybe I can just work hard like everyone else, save money and travel like Lock Li. Go to places I always dream of. See things that I have never seen before in my life. If I retired and sell all my opera stuff I think I can go Paris for awhile. Maybe I will meet a nice French guy and get married there and stay there for good?

Isn't that much better than doing something that I am always flopping then I will have kp in my blog. Not like I enjoy kping... well maybe I do.... abit...

But that's not the point.

Anyway, my life quite screwed up. My face is screwed up, my eyes are screwed up, my opera screwed up, everything screwed everything. Why can't I have double eyelids and bigger eyes???? Why can't I have a longer chin? My stupid face makes me look like dunno what rubbish on stage. Screwed up.

Sianz...

To the max...

I wish I can just lie in bed the whole day tomorrow. You know, just lie there under the blanket. But I tomorrow have to go do some other things which I dunno if I will flop or not.

Now I dunno if I should go put moisturizer on my legs because I think putting moisturizer will not help my legs to be more hydrated. Why? Because I am borned like this where everything just seems screwed up.

Haiz.. nvm, just treat as I am talking nonsense.